Hey! So Glad You're Here.

I found Christ at 14, a time when my life was chaos and church hadn’t really been a staple until then. I remember watching the other youth and thinking they had something that I didn’t. I can remember understanding what I was committing to, but looking back I had no idea what it meant to have a relationship with Christ. I think that’s common – you feel Christ call, and you walk down that isle, and some piece of you thinks that everything will be great after that decision. It’s not; and it can’t be, because even though you made that decision, we’re still living in a fallen world. I spent the next 20 years going back and forth. When my son was born, I tried to get back to my roots. I can remember telling someone that I didn’t want Jesus to feel like a choice to him, I just wanted it to be so natural and an integral part of his life. Good intentions with literally no resources to help guide my path.

 

By the time I met my husband, I had some very “new age” views about religion and Christ. My husband had grown up in the church, but he never pushed. One day, I took him up on his invitation, and before I knew it, I was attempting to walk with the Lord again. But like before, I had no real resources to help me do that…which meant I had no idea what to do.

 

I think Jesus became REAL to me in 2020. Up until then I was striving to do enough to be accepted. With my second marriage on the verge of ending, I put my stubbornness aside and decided to trust where God was leading. The restoration of a really terrible marriage changed my entire perspective on how God interacts with our daily lives. Together, we decided to submit entirely to Jesus’ plan for us. I met someone in the body of Christ that was willing to mentor me and help me learn to study God’s word and apply it to the practical situations in my life. For years I had been trying to learn my way into hearing the voice of God, and suddenly I could hear it constantly. The last 4 years have been learning to surrender one thing after another. God shows me where I’m still holding on, and I’m learning to let go. I’m evaluating my “secular” gifts, knowing that God gave them to me ultimately to benefit the Kingdom, and trying to find my place in the body. But most of all, over the last year or so, God has been breaking my heart for the things that break his. Marriage is one key piece, but I also have been overwhelmed by how focused the church is on bringing in lost souls, but we kind of just let them go after they’re saved. If someone had walked with me, maybe I wouldn’t have gotten quite so lost.

 

That’s where the blog started. I wanted an honest place to share what was going on, how I was navigating that with God, and share how he was opening up Scripture through that situation. I wanted a place to share what I was learning in small bits that were digestible and relevant. Really though, the blog is helping ME understand God – which is why there have been plenty of moments I thought the blog might just be for me…

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